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We can imagine the deaths of his brother and his father in rapid 
succession had filled him with such guilt that he could not enjoy this 
idyllic situation to the full. Perhaps the situation aroused desires in 
him which he could no longer face on a conscious level and he could only 
keep these in check by either remaining in bed and playing the part of a 
helpless child or absenting himself from the situation entirely. In any case, 
he must have been a considerable problem to his mother who died four years 
after his father. Dr. Bloch informs us that her great concern in dying 
was: "What would become of poor Adolph, he is still so young." At this 
time Adolph was eighteen years of age. He had failed at school and had 
not gone to work. He describes himself at this time as a milk-sop, which 
he undoubtedly was.

Admission examinations to Academy of Art.

Two months before his mother's death he had gone to Vienna to take the 
entrance examinations for admission to the Academy of Art. At this time 
he knew that his mother was in a critical condition and that it was only 
a matter of a few months before death would overtake her. He knew, 
therefore, that this easy existence at home would shortly come to an end 
and that he would then have to face the cold, hard world on his own. It 
is sometimes extraordinary how events in the lifetime of an 
individual fall together. The first day's assignment on the examination 
was to draw a picture depicting [00010210.GIF Page 204] "The Expulsion 
from Paradise". It must have seemed to him that Fate had chosen this 
topic to fit his personal situation. On the second day he must have felt 
that Fate was rubbing it in when he found the assignment to be a picture 
depicting "An Episode of the Great Flood". These particular topics in 
his situation met have aroused such intense emotional reactions within 
him that he could hardly be expected to do his best. Art critics seem to 
feel that he has some artistic talent even though it is not 
outstanding. The comment of the examiners was: "Too few heads." We 
can understand this in view of the circumstances under which he had 
taken the examination. 

Death of his mother.

He returned home shortly after the examinations. He helped to look 
after his mother who was rapidly failing and in extreme pain. She died 
on December 21, 1907 and was buried on Christmas Eve. Adolph was 
completely broken and stood for a long time at her grave after the 
remainder of the family had left. Dr. Bloch says: "In all my career 
I have never seen anyone so prostrate with grief as Adolph Hitler." 
His world had come to an end. Not long after the funeral he left for 
Vienna in order to follow in his father's footsteps and make his own 
way in the world. He made a poor job of it, however. He could not hold 
a job when he had one, and sunk lower and lower in the social scale 
until he was compelled to live with the dregs of society.

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Vienna days.

As he writes about these experiences in MEIN KAMPF one gets the 
impression that it was a terrific struggle against overwhelming odds. 
From what we now know of Adolph Hitler it would seem more likely that 
this existance yielded him considerable gratification in spite of its 
hardships. It is perfectly clear from what Hanisch writes that with a 
very small amount of effort he could have made a fair living and improved 
his condition by painting water-colors. He refused to make this effort 
and preferred to live in the filth and  poverty which surrounded him. 
There must have been something in this that he liked, consciously or 

When we examine Hanisch's book carefully, we find the answer. Hitler's 
life in Vienna was one of extreme passivity in which activity was held 
at the lowest level consistent with survival. He seemed to enjoy being 
dirty and even filthy in his appearance and personal cleanliness. This 
can mean only one thing, from a psychological point of view, namely that 
his perversion was in the process of maturation and was finding 
gratification in a more or less symbolic form. His attitude during 
this period could be summed up in the following terms: "I enjoy nothing 
more than to lie around while the world defacates on me." And he probably 
delighted in being covered with dirt, which was tangible proof of the 
fact. Even in these days he lived in [00010212.GIF  Page 205] a 
flophouse which was known to be inhabited by men who lent themselves to 
homosexual practices, and it was probably for this reason that he was 
listed on the Vienna police record as a "sexual pervert."

Nobody has ever offered an explanation of why he remained in Vienna for 
over five years if his life there was as distasteful and the city 
disgusted him to the degree that he claims in his autobiography. He was 
free to leave whenever he wished and could have gone to his beloved 
Germany years earlier if he had so desired. The fact of the matter is 
that he probably derived great masochistic satisfaction from his 
miserable life in Vienna, and it was not until his perversion became 
full-blown and he realized its implications that he fled to Munich at 
the beginning of 1913. 


With the development of his perverse tendencies we also find the 
development of his anti-Semitism. There is absolutely no evidence that 
he had any anti-Semitic feeling before he left Linz or that he had any 
during the first years of his stay in Vienna. On the contrary, he was 
on the very best terms with Dr. Bloch while he was in Linz and 
sent him postcards with very warm sentiments for slome time after he 
went to Vienna. Furthermore, his closest friends in Vienna were Jews, 
some of whom were extremely kind to him. Then, too, we must remember that 
his godfather, who lived in Vienna, [00010213.GIF  Page 207] was a Jew 
and it is possible that during his first year there he might have lived 
with this family. Most of the records of his mother's death are incorrect 
and place the event exactly one year after it had happened. During this 
year Hitler lived in Vienna but we have no clue as to what he did or how 
he managed to live without money during this intervening year.

All we know is that he had time for painting during this period for he 
submitted the work he had done to the Academy of Art the following October. 
He was not admitted to the examination, however, because the examiners 
found the work of this period unsatisfactory. Shortly afterwards, he 
applied for admission to the School of Architecture but was rejected. 
The cause of his rejection was probably inadequate talent rather than the 
fact that he had not completed his course in the Realschule. It is only 
after this happened that we find him going to work as a laborer on a 
construction job, and from then on we have a fairly complete picture of 
his activities.

We know that he had very little money when he left Linz, certainly not 
enough to live on for almost an entire year while he spent his time in 
painting. Since the date of his mother's death has been so universally 
distorted, it would seem that efforts were being made to cover something 
which happened during this intervening year. My guess would be that he 
lived with his Jewish godparents who supported him while he was preparing 
work for the Academy. When he failed to be [00010214.GIF Page 208] 
admitted at the end of a year, they put him out and made him go to work. 
There is one bit of evidence for this hypothesis. Hanisch, in his book, 
mentions in passing that when they were particularly destitute he went 
with Hitler to visit a well-to-do Jew whom Hitler said was his father. 
The wealthy Jew would have nothing to do with him and sent him on his 
way again. There is scarcely a possibility that Hitler's father was a 
Jew, but Hanisch might easily have understood him to say father when he 
said godfather. This would certainly make much more sense and would 
indicate that Hitler had contact with his godparents before the visit 
and that they were fed up with him and would help him no further.


Hitler's outstanding defense mechanism is one commonly called PROJECTION. 
It is a technique by which the ego of an individual defends itself against 
unpleasant impulses, tendencies or characteristics by denying their 
existence in himself while he attributes them to others. Innumerable 
examples of this mechanism could be cited in Hitler's case, but a few 
will suffice for purposes of illustration:

"In the last six years I had to stand intolerable things from states 
like Poland."

"It must be possible that the German nation can live its life...without 
being constantly molested."

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"Social democracy...directs a bombardment of lies and calumnies towards 
the adversary who seemed most dangerous, till finally the nerves of those 
who have been attacked give out and they for the sake of peace, bow down 
to the hated enemy."

"For this peace proposal of mine I was abused, and personally insulted. Mr. 
Chamberlain in fact spat upon me before the eyes of the world..."

"...It was in keeping with our own harmlessness that England took the liberty 
of some day meeting our peaceful activity with the brutality of the 
violent egoist."

"...The outstanding features of Polish character were cruelty and 
lack of moral restraint."

From a psychological point of view it is not too far-fetched to suppose 
that as the perversion developed and became more disgusting to Hitler's 
ego, its demands were disowned and projected upon the Jew. By this 
process the Jew became a symbol of everything which HitIer hated in 
himself. Again, his own personal problems and conflicts were transferred 
from within himself to the external world where they assumed the 
proportions of racial and national conflicts.

Forgetting entirely that for years he not only looked like a lower class Jew 
but was as dirty as the dirtiest and as great a social outcast, he now began 
to see the Jew as a source of all evil. The teachings of Schoenerer and Lueger 
helped to solidify and rationalize his feelings and inner convictions. More and 
more he became convinced that the Jew was a great parasite on humanity 
which sucked its life-blood [00010216.GIF Page 210] and if a nation was 
to become great it must rid itself of
this pestilence. Translated back into personal terms this
would read: "My perversion is a parasite which sucks my
life-blood and if I am to become great I must rid myself of
this pestilence." When we see the connection between his
sexual perversion and anti-Semitism, we can understand another
aspect of his constant linking of syphilis with the Jew. These
are the things which destroy nations and civilizations as a
perversion destroys an individual.

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