00010536.GIF Page 15 LUDECKE I remember that as he perused the two pages I had marked, he wore the vacant expression often typical of him when he is intently reading or listening - mouth open and underlip drawn in. When he had finished ... I fairly snatched the magazine from him; I did not want his attention wandering to extraneous things. He submitted without a word, and looked up at me with an expression almost of docility. Ludecke. I knew H. p. 453 (Lunch hour during same conversation, 3/12/32) "I've been doing without alcohol for a long while," he said. "It can't be good to take alcohol with meals; it ferments in your stomach, and that doesn't help your digestion. That doesn't mean that you shouldn't have some wine if you want it. I'm glad you've stopped smoking... I can't abide the smell of cigarettes." I asked about his vegetarianism. He said that he had tried it during the first presidential campaign that spring, and it had so increased his efficiency and endurance that he had decided to go on with it. p. 478, Ludecke, I knew H. Hitler gave me a shrewd look: ... "Ludecke, you neddn't [sic] worry... Schauen Sie, Goebbels ist ein vom Schicksal geschlagener Mann."at was it... this clubfoot can never be dangerous to you... p. 476, Ludecke, I knew H. "I think that Magda Goebbels really wanted to marry you," I said. He met that with a simplicity which disarmed me completely. "no," he said. And after a moment: "In those days I was the happiest man in the world," ... there were tears in his eyes and he was clearly unashamed to have me see them. "You remember what Schiller says about the envious gods: 'Life's undiluted joy is not granted to a mortal.' ... Geli - you never knew her. She was very dear to me." .. the physician who had examined her body had told one of my friends that she had died a virgin. The special quality of Hitler's affection for his half-sister's child is still a thing of mystery to those closest to him. pp. 476/77. Ludecke, I knew H. 00010537.GIF Page 16 LUDECKE "I'm utterly sick of these gossip-mongers and moralists", Hitler told me. "... complaining about all the women-chasers among the... SA. ...I'd a lot rather my good SA men took the pretty women than that some fat-bellief [sic] money-bag should have them.... Why should I concern myself with the private lives of my followers.... Any quite apart from Roehm's great achievements, I know I can absolutely depend on him." In other words, said my mind, Roehm, like Goebbels, is vulnerable - his perversion has delivered him into your hands.... pp. 477/48, Ludecke, I knew H. We talked easily for a while about Nazi prospects, but whenever I pressed for precise instructions or for information... Hitler at once became reserved or evasive. I had the impression that this was due less to his secretive nature than to the fact that virtually nothing had been planned, either in practical foreign policy or in diplomatic personnel. He did concede that something should be done... He would discuss ... with Rosenberg... For the rest, I was able to elicit only general suggestions.... p. 481, Ludecke, I knew H. ...a young acquaintance... insisted that I help her to get a glimpse of Hitler... We sat at a table... from which my companion could watch the Fuehrer. He saw us at once and returned my salute with a friendly smile and a wave of his hand. Presently... the Nazi dictator was behaving in an amazing manner, showing us his best face and looking at my young lady with soulful eyes... "Why didn't you join my table? Was that your wife?" he asked. "A striking woman, beautifully dressed... very good looking." pp. 487/488 Ludecke, I knew H. (In a train from Berlin to Munich, Sept 32) Hitler was in an optimistic and expansive mood... "I don't intend to be treated like a glass-doll, riding only in special trains at fixed times..." And here he got up again the perfect mime, and advanced on Schaub in a take-off of the typical German station-master... coming to pay his respects to a traveling Personage...'I'll keep on doing as I please..." His pleasures, he said, were too precious to him - motoring, flying, going places and seeing people and always returning to ... the Obersalzberg... pp. 488/89, Ludecke, I knew H. 00010538. PAGE 12 LUDECKE Then he told me about his police-dogs at Haus Wachenfeld - Blonda, Much, and Wolf. Bolnda [sic] was his special pet, and like a boy he imitated her wiles for wheedling favors out of him. During our evening in which he talked almost continuously without giving me even a moment of boredom, I kept sufficient detachment to observe the expertness with which Hitler created his effects - drawing forth details from a mind which had them ready in nice order, modulating his voice, using his body, his head, his hands, his mobile face. It was not so much conscious acting as the perfect co-ordination of impulse and expression, something that had become second nature with him.... Even in his intimate and cozy moment, I sensed no attitude of familiarity towards him on the part of his staff; there was always a certain distance about him, that subtle quality of aloofness which unquestionably contributes to his unusual ability to deal with individuals.... pp. 4(?), Ludecke, I knew H. ...I visited Hitler in his luxurious, modern flat of eight or nine beautiful, large rooms covering the entire second floor of 16 Prinzregentenplatz ... His body-guard was quartered somewhere on the ground floor. The same Frau Winter who had looked after him in the [unreadable] was now keeping house for him; his sister spent most of her time at Haus Wachenfeld. ...This flat showed for pure legend the idea that Hitler was still living simply. The furniture had been designed by Ludwig Trosst... and Hitler would not have accepted such a service for nothing, since he always made a point of refusing important gifts. It was legend likewise that he still lived exclusively on his earnings as a writer. He had a fleet of private cars at his disposal; his gasoline and travel bills were always paid by his adjutant, Brueckner, out of an expense account provided by Party funds. Though occasionally he kept to second- or third-rate histelries [sic] endeared to him from the old days, for the most part he stayed at first-class hotels. ...With visible pride Hitler conducted me to his library, an attractive, cozy room, lined with several thousand books, many of them gifts... He waved me on into his study, ... which... somehow reminded me of a college-boy's study fitted out by rich parents. pp. 507/08, Ludecke, I knew H. 00010539.GIF Page 13 LUDECKE The Fuehrer came in late, looking very preoccupied, and restraint fell over the table. He ate hurriedly and said little. The moment he left...the jollity welled up again. Few people ever seem really at ease in Hitler's presence. (Munich, 1932) p. 512, Ludecke, I knew H. The time of farewells had arrived and Hitler seemed genuinely moved... his eyes were moits [sic]. With as much spontaneity as I had ever seen in him, he clasped my hand... ... all his personnel idolizes him ... the office-girl dashed up to the car, after the driver had started the motor, laid a bundle at Hitler's feet and said: "Herr Hitler, here's the rug you wanted..." and then scurried shyly away... pp. 512/513 Ludecke, I knew H. As usual Hitler sat in the front seat beside the driver. He adores automobiles and knows everything about them, but told me regretfully that he dared not drive, for in case of accident he would be personally responsible. Systematically he was subduing everything to his plan ... I realized how amazingly he had learned to discipline himself.... p. 512, Ludecke, I knew H. (In the Carlton tea-room in Munich,fall, 1932; with Hoffmann, his wife, the Schirachs and the author.) ...Hitler, completely at ease and saying little, plundering the pastry with great gusto; content to indulge in his sweet tooth and his fondness for cakes and "Melhspeisen." Relaxed as he was, he gave me the best opportunity to study the physical man since my return. He wore no jewelry, as always, and looked very neat and clean in his dark blue suit, which fitted him none too well, for he was still loyal to his third-class tailor. His once lean and serious face with its cruel, ugly, and individual mouth was beginning to be caricatured by furrows along his nose and cheeks and by the start of pouches underneath eyes and chin. For the first time I observed that he seldom shows his teeth, probably because they are bad; there are several prominent gold teeth ..... contrary to the prevalent impression, he is not "alpine" either in stature or head. He is narrow-faced and dolichocephalic rather... pp. 514/15, Ludecke, I knew H.
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